Denied Again................And I feel like Pooh!

Life is full of denials.  It's just a fact.  Recently however my denials have been adding up rather quickly in all aspects of my life.  

Before I get started on my rant let me say that I hope everyone had a great Halloween and I hope that you all have a wonderful upcoming Holiday season.

For a while there dealing with all the different denials in my life was somewhat manageable.  Each denial brought me down a little but I bounced back.  I think my bouncing days are over.  I feel like Tigger who has lost the spring in his tail.

First there was the seven month wait to see a "specialist" in the field of cardiology in hopes that she would have more answers then my regular doctors and could help me find a way to feel better.   NOT!!!! All she said was, "You seem to be trying all we know how to do, I don't have any other suggestions that can help you."  REALLY, I waited seven months for that!!!!

Next was finding out that there is no way Wil and I are going to be able to take our yearly trip to Squaw Valley for a little alone time and some very much needed rest and recovery.  This is a special time for Wil and I, it is the anniversary of our DD relationship, it is now what we consider our Anniversary.  All around it is just a special time for the two of us to spend together and without it this year just won't be the same.

Oh and did I mention no Christmas this year???? Seems when I made up the yearly budget I used one paycheck twice.  I don't know how I managed to screw that one up but the free paycheck that we were suppose to have in November doesn't exist and that is where our Christmas money was coming from so bye bye Christmas gifts.  Actually this one I can overcome.  Although I have always enjoyed the material side of Christmas as long as we can all be together as a family it will be okay.

Then to make matters worse I got my second decision from Social Security on my disability status.  Once again it was a big fat DENIED!!!! Seems that Social Security thinks that I would have no problem working full time as an office manager even though I am only able to stand for 5 minutes at a time and sit for no more then 15 minutes before I have to lie down or I will faint.  Hmmm, let me think about this one.  Kind of hard to find a job that will let you work 8 hours in a row lying down.  And no I can't even be a prostitute because I can't stand long enough on a street corner to find any customers without fainting.  THANKS Social Security.......Hello Lawyers!

Now I could deal with all of this if I were able to have a bit of stress relief.  Yet that doesn't seem to be happening at all!!! It's nobody's fault but it seems that every time Wil and I get two seconds alone I am under the weather!  I feel like Eeyore always being followed around by a rain cloud ready to burst at any second.  Sunday would have been the perfect alone day for Wil and I but lucky me, I had a severe hypoglycemic episode first thing in the morning and end up in bed the rest of the day.  No stress relief happening here!  So now I am denied spankings too????

So this seems to be the way of the world right now.  I just feel stuck in a place that isn't willing to let me escape.  No matter how hard I try, or Wil tries or anyone tries I can't get out.  Just once I could use something to go my way.  It's really not that much to ask for is it?

So what is one to do?  Well if nothing else writing this blog has taught me Pooh-ology.  First when life gets you down the best thing you can do is say......"Oh Bother!" and just move on.

The next thing I learned from studying Pooh is that there's nothing better then a hug from a true friend.

And that there's always happiness at the end of a rainbow.  I just need to keep searching for the end.

Also all you really need in life are good friends.

And Finally:

When all else fails, love your Honey!!!